born serene oh but not old.
nicknamed the old one now.
i stress, i am not old.
i would prefer to be called, mature.

It's not a dream if it came true,
but we exist to dream.
Make a wish,
I'm your faithful genie that doesn't have much patience :)

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i say things that are out of the expectations of those who know me. those who has seen my daily actions and behaviour. i hardly have an in-depth conversation with you guys.

what is an in-depth conversation? a conversation that will start us all thinking. not about things like gossip which also starts us thinking. but thinking that might aid us later in life, that allows us to understand the whole, the way of life better.

there are few such conversations held. i like the ones i had with da, with yJ and with adi. they got me thinking. and yah. suaku too. when she's not feeling too down. it's kinda nice to think, but not too frequently. it will turn out to be negative. oh. and i like the conversations we hold in the prata shop. the what if game. it sets me thinking. does it makes you think too?
it's down to one more paper. till the end of a's for most. if i were supposed to take a's this year, i'll be down to my one last paper. and the timetable sucks. hope i don't get that next year. pretty please.

anyways, one more chemistry paper one to go. fight on people. fight on my love. after the 17th, we can party. can we go out soon? hee. the 24th is just around the corner. i so cannot wait for it to never ever arrive. but it will. it will. i only hope when that day comes, we will face it calmly, with all the love and joy we have for each other, and not sadness.

on a lighter note, i love working with this brunch of crazy people. haha. okays okays. i hear you. crazy aunties right. haha. they are, wendy, joey, valerie, cindy, sharon, sarah, helen, jasmine, erica, gigi, selene and katherine. not that i enjoy working with all of them, i don't like chao kah, but on the whole, it's fun! they are so comical, so bubbly, so funny. and they speak in dialects and chinese. haha. only during this period can i say,"i don't understand cantonese" in cantonese. haha.

okays people. should be starting to watch gong or xue shan fei hu soon. till the next time, ((:

p.s. i'm going to vivo tomorrow! :D:D:D:D:D
have i ever told you i love you?
today's entry will be on da. yes, my beloved da. it starts from the first time da got me a gift.

i still remember the first time da bought me a gift. it's a bag of cookies from famous amos. received it on the day we met up to go over to mi to check out the place. we were supposed to meet at clementi because da wanted to go get some stuff first. who knows, it turns out to be a bag of cookies for me! i think da went all the way to town to get those cookies before heading to clementi. thanks da. thanks.

the days in mi were great. we went to school together in the mornings, meeting weird taxi uncles who spoke to 2 students in hokkien. and a few taxi uncles who took us on a roundabout, thinking we didn't know the way. haha. we came home together at the beginning, with weicong and guotai. slowly, we began to have our own lives in school. however, the morning meetings were consistent, till the day da withdrew. from then on, i started taking a long bus trip to toh tuck all by myself, for about 2 weeks, i think.

da's birthday falls on jan, which is during the mi period. wanted to get a wallet as a gift but i never had the money. can't be helped when i am such a glutton.

da and i stopped meeting when jae started. then again, we never met even before pae so it's life back to normal. we will only see each other when we somehow bump into each other on our ways home. those chances are rare, considering the fact that we live really near. on my birthday, da came over and gave me a doraemon coin bank and a can of doraemon sweets. had a good chat before parting. that day, da also found out i retained. guess da's the first to find out other than my classmates/schoolmates. life goes on till a little before da's birthday. went shopping with ahma for presents! a fragrance and a pullover. we wanted so much to keep it for ourselves right? ((: ahma said i splurged but hey, you splurged months later too. so, peace. heee. anways, da said it was the most thoughtful gift ever. maybe it was said with the purpose of making me happy, and guess what? it did. (:

bumped into da twice this year. once when we were messaging when da suddenly called and told me to turn around. there da was, just walking behind me. amazingly,da recognised me from the back. haha. another time was when i was wtih merv when we saw each other. only managed a hi and a smile because i was talking to merv. the last time we met was to pass me my birthday gift. da was trying to be thoughtful and got me a wonderful gift. now, it almost never leaves my side.

in all, i just want to say thank you to da. for being here for me all the time. you never fail to brighten up my life with the little thoughts. you never fail to show me concern at the appropriate times, like you can predict whatever is happening. you might not know this but, you gave me the strength to continue on the journey. thank you, really, thank you. no amount of thank yous will ever be enough but, thank you. and i thank you once again.

a song that goes out to da.

Celine Dion - Because You Loved Me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed I
'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

da, i love you.
(:
okays. more lyrics coming up. haha. listening to the older songs again, that's why there's new discovery of old song lyrics. love them a lot, really do.

杨丞琳 - 过敏
你消失的一百天　
我没了笑脸　
怕别人看见　
我敏感的神经线　
一点一点　没知觉　

泛红双眼　不成眠　
它跟着我一整夜　
麻痹的脸　特效药也　无解　

才发现　我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节　
OH过敏源　是对你的思念　
我想我　才了解　我正停格在爱情过敏的季节　
季节没改变　是想念　没断线　

我想我　才发现　
感情尘蹒已布满了我的世界　
OH过敏源　是为你流的泪　
我想我　才了解　就算用尽了力气也未必如愿　
季节没改变　是眼泪　弄湿脸　
季节一直变但我的心　没有变　

你消失的一百天　我没了笑脸　
没知觉

i particularly love this line - 过敏源　是为你流的泪 pretty yah. (:

萧亚轩 - 吻
如果时间能把我们的思念稀释了
从此以后互不相干
各自爱着别的人
只要不遇见
忽然下雨的清晨
在起床的时候
会莫名的失神


说好决定要努力忘了啊
为何还有泪停在脸角
你身边是否还是那个她
取代我在你醒来吻你吗
取代我在你睡前吻你吗

如果当时我们都能够勇敢的承认
因为太在乎对方所以才倔强的等待着
后来每个失眠的午夜时分
还不愿意后悔 却忍不住会问
那段流着眼泪寻找解答的日子 已过去了
只是没想到爱情要
我们付出漫长想念代价

love it. especially the second line in red. somehow, i like it better than the line before it. weird yah.

萧亚轩 - 他和她的故事
他说他很爱她
他说会守护她
他送她玫瑰花
一切美得不像话

从朋友变成情人
她不再只有自己
他爱他爱得彻底
真心溢满了甜蜜

时间看清一个人
开始令人昏沉沉
他像变了一个人 太蛮横
她开始悬著疑问
不想再等他承认
不再要任何伤痕

谁爱谁
谁又流乾了眼泪
谁后悔
难分难舍太伤悲
他爱谁
谁应该止住眼泪
她心碎
谁又该乾脆离开
谁爱谁
谁又能反反覆覆
谁后悔
谁在忍受著孤独
谁了解 他退出 她孤独
谁了解 谁退出 谁孤独
爱得太盲目
谁不满足

i like the way this is written. (:

刘若英 - 后来
后来我总算学会了如何去爱
可惜你早已远去
消失在人海
后来
终于在眼泪中明白
有些人一旦错过就不再

槴子花 白花瓣 落在我蓝色百褶裙上
“爱你！”你轻声说
我低下头闻见一阵芬芳
那个永恒的夜晚
十七岁仲夏 你吻我的那个夜晚
让我往后的时光
每当有感叹
总想起当天的星光

那时候的爱情
为什么就能那样简单
而又是为什么人年少时
一定要让深爱的人受伤

在这相似的深夜里
你是否一样
也在静静追悔感伤
如果当时我们能不那么倔强
现在也不那么遗憾

你都如何回忆我
带著笑或是很沉默
这些年来有没有人能让你不寂寞

永远不会再重来
有一个男孩爱著那个女孩

the last line is so true. so simple and yet, true.

范玮琪 - 可不可以不勇敢
你用浓浓的鼻音说一点也没事
反正又美又痛才是爱的本质
一个人旅行也许更有意思
和他真正结束才能重新开始
几年贴心的日子换分手两个字
你却严格只准自己哭一下子
看着你努力想微笑的样子
我的心像大雨将至那么潮湿

我们可不可以不勇敢？
当伤太重心太酸无力承担
就算现在女人很流行释然
好像什么困境都知道该怎么办
我们可不可以不勇敢？
当爱太累梦太乱没有答案
难道不能坦白的放声哭喊？
要从心底拿走一个人很痛很难

love the first line in red. simply beautiful. and the lyrics speaks right to the heart.

范玮琪 - 他没有错
就这样放了彼此的手
究竟是尽头还是个出口
只是我还记得
他每一次抚摸
只是我还熟悉
他每一个轮廓
不知道从此要难过多久
我相信一定和孤独一样久
原来天长地久
是形容一种痛
这样的有始有终换来
怎样的海阔天空

他没有错
只是没有爱我很久
他没有错
是我飞蛾扑火
我求一个经过
不妄想一个结果
他没有错
他没有错
只是没有为我停留
他没有错
是爱的不是时候
他没有错
只是没有陪我到最后
没有陪我到最后

原来天长地久是形容一种痛 - a new perspective towards 天长地久. instead of loving one forever, it's more of feeling the pain of leaving your loved one forever. pretty.

S.H.E - 记得要忘记
在就要转身前
突然又想起你
相遇的那天漾着微笑的你
那个微笑还是很美丽
可惜那个人常常要让人哭泣

太耀眼的城市不适合看星星
就如同你的心不适合谈安定
谢谢你让我伤过心
学会爱情并非执迷
人改变不了改变不了的事情

记得要忘记忘记
我提醒自己
你已经是人海中的一个背影
长长时光
我应该要有新的回忆

人无法决定会为谁动心
但至少可以决定放不放弃
我承认我还是会爱着你
但我将永不再触碰这记忆

记得要忘记
忘记经过我的你
毕竟只是很偶像的那种相遇
不会不容易我有一辈子
足够用来忘记
我还有一辈子
可以用来努力
我一定会忘记你

my all time favourite. the very first song that made me cry just by listening to it. no one else seems to appreciate it as much as i do. oh wells.

光良 - 第一次
当你看着我
我没有开口
已被你猜透
还是没把握
还是没有符合
你的要求

是我自己想得太多
还是你也在闪躲
如果真的选择是我
我鼓起勇气去接受
不知不觉让视线开始闪烁

喔 第一次我
说爱你的时候
呼吸难过
心不停地颤抖
喔 第一次我
牵起你的双手
失去方向
不知该往那儿走
那是一起相爱的理由
(对我) 那是一起厮守

喔 第一次吻
你深深的酒涡
想要清醒却冲昏了头
喔 第一次你
躺在我的胸口
二十四小时
没有分开过
那是第一次知道
天长地久
感觉你属于我
感觉你的眼眸

第一次就决定
决不会错

another song that i loved from the first time i heard it. i even bought the album. that's great aye. (:

H.O.T. - A Song For A Lady
对不起 是我让你难过
让你在雪白的脸颊
流下了泪水
对不起 你要原谅我
你离开我对我是件
很可怕的事
因为太爱你
所以那一段日子
没有你是难过又寂寞
下雨的日子里
我总是淋着雨
不断的哭泣

我好爱你 好想见你
与你相遇而感到幸福
我要发誓 以后绝对不会
再难过悲伤
一定要回来喔

对不起 我爱你
我真的对不起你
我怀念和你在一起的日子
我爱你
不知道这首歌 反复
唱了多少次
不断地流下泪水

今天好想见到你
我紧紧把你的照片握在手上
泪水掉落在你的脸上
像是你也在哭泣

我好爱你 好想见到你
与你相遇而感到幸福
我要发誓 以后绝对不会
再难过悲伤 现在
你该回来了吧

我要相信你
爱你一次就好
请你抱紧我 以你为理由
我不会再哭
你是我最后一个爱

我会为了不再失去而祈祷

i finally found out the meaning of the song. before today, i never knew. from my very limited korean, i inferred that it's a really sad song. seems like it. i love the part after the chorus where the guy said those lines. i love this song a lot, a lot, a lot.

(:
the more i read, the more i see, the worse i feel. damn.
so far, so far, so far away.

on the other hand, nearer and nearer. to da.
thanks for being there whenever i needed you.
thanks for always making my life so much better.
thanks for the right timing, all the time.
thanks.
love you.
ahh! i got it i got it i got it!! it's KEN HIRAI! haha. so it does have a H in it. haha. that line sounds weird too. okays. anyways, i got it. hahaa.
okays. i am like currently in love with seng again. haha. he never fails to amaze me with his voice, over and over again. guess what? i am now totally in love with 凌晨三点钟

这是你离开的第三个星期六
面包我吃了两口
啤酒还剩半升
香烟我还是一包接一包地抽
你搬走了以后
我还会常常在你住的公寓底下
等你下楼

现在是凌晨三点钟
喝了点酒头有点痛
寂寞的烟点燃空虚的夜
暂时把心放空
你晾的床单忘了收
没烫的衬衫有点皱
明天开始我将如何面对
没有你的以后

那些美好的画面反复在播送
但心破碎了之后
要怎么去拼凑

Baby Baby
Love can be so beautiful
只怪那一刻话说得太重
所有的情节都失控
Baby Baby
Love should be so beautiful
你给的太多
现在我才懂
只有烟和酒陪伴的
凌晨三点钟

现在是凌晨三点钟
喝了点酒头有点痛
你晾的床单忘了收
没烫的衬衫有点皱
明天开始我将如何面对
没有你的以后

凌乱的房间里头
还留着你的香味
怎么也戒不掉你独特的笑容
如果时钟倒着走
我不会再让你走
有些事情要绝望到底
才能看得透

yeah. i think the lyrics is beautiful. very beautiful. and i just saw super junior's mv on mtv just now. the song is U. gosh. they can dance man. like wooyeah. hee. love it baby, love it. i thought it was dbsk but the fact that they had a lot of people made me believe that dbsk's dancers won't have the equal amount of limelight so, it's super junior. haha. this line looks damn weird. oh wells. anyways, all i want to say it, i want to dance! i want to look at people dancing. good thing nex's production is this coming saturday. haven't seen a real dance performance since like the hip hop finals man. i can't wait. i can't wait. i can't wait! ((:

one more thing. i love pin guan's new song too.
无可救药

暗恋是一种礼貌 暗地里盖一座城堡
然后再当你的警卫跑腿和小猫
随时你要我重灌电脑 随时你要我随传随到
买面包鸡排和水饺

你每次对着我笑 你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到 最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你 越来越无可救药

一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到 幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要 就爱吧
就这样吧就不逃
爱你到无可救药

heard him sang it live the other day. yah. fell in love with it. it's love at first hearing. haha. so wrong lah that line. haha. anyways, ah shin write lyrics pretty well. his lyrics are always so beautiful. it's like, a painting. a movie. a story. haha. this is so duh can. haha. just crapping now.

one last thing. just saw K's mv on mtv too. haha. the song is first christmas. okay. i think he sings well. and points are added to the fact that he played the piano in the mv. i mentioned this before right? i love guys playing the piano. okay. that's out of point. anyways, i think he has the potential to take over the top male singer in japan. at least the one i think is the top. haha. and guess what? i forgot his name. totally. seriously. and now, i am feeling very sad because i can't recall his name, at all. he looks a bit angmoh. he's the one who sang Gaining Through Losing. you know, the liu xing yu song. and i freaking cannot remember his name. damn. i keep on thinking that it starts with a H. but what? then i thought that it could be Ryu but no?! eeyer. i forgot. freak it. know who i am talking about? drop me a shoutout on his name okay. thanks.

end of my randomness now. and wei xiao is 45mins away. yays! finally. after like 6+ hours. by the time it finally finish loading, it'll be 7hours. wow. haha. that's why udee is a little lag now but it seems like he has recovered. wooh. yays. i can now finally blog without the lag but i am done with it. urgh. stupid udee. still, i love you boy.
(:
ah. i finally understand. haha. i know why now. i know. the wanbao ah. they wrote duo ai wo yi dian. no wonder lah. no wonder i didn't get it when i was reading it. ah. now i know. okays. this is really random.

((:
and mou mou ren.
hellos my loves. haha. i love you. haha. damn high. okays. it's just that i've been away from blogging too long!! haha. so now that i am back, i am high. doesn't make sense? no worries, cos i don't understand what i am talking about too. haha. yu wu lun ci. haha.

okays. first up. happy belated birthday to mr zhang. he is 26 this year, if i am not wrong. haha. i totally forgot about it until i read the wanbao just now. haha. sorry babe. sorry. okays. and i have to admit i am pretty slow. haha. they said eg sang duo ai wo yi tian together, and i was like orh. then, half an hour later, i came to realisation that it's duo ai. haha. how slow right. it's like my favourite and a very important song and i just forgot about it. haha. this shows how far away from the eg times i am. haha. this line sounds weird. haha.

what else? hmm. i don't know what to say lah! haha. ah. okays. got it.

since i don't know when, i've been calling people by their surnames. like mr zhang. mr etc, mr etc. haha. i can't remember how else but got lah. haha. then it's choo and phua and kor and gan. haha. so weird eh. haha. okays. that's pretty random. yah. haha.

bye bye! hahaa.