born serene oh but not old.
nicknamed the old one now.
i stress, i am not old.
i would prefer to be called, mature.

It's not a dream if it came true,
but we exist to dream.
Make a wish,
I'm your faithful genie that doesn't have much patience :)

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i have so much to say. and yet, i don't want to say. no use saying things that will leave behind a memory where i can refer to, and it's not a good one. just say, it gonna do with my class and a lot of people. yah. if i remember whatever happened days/years down the road, then i'll remember. if not, good.

have good things to say too. but don't feel like saying. hope it remains in my memory for good. okays. hint to myself years down the road, it's about the englisch boys. okays. hee. laziness rule me.

what else? all the not so good stuff, i'll leave it out lah. don't bother trying to remember and piss myself off.

nick of the day: not likeable at all.
Tired yet happy. soccer

Fed-up yet can't be bothered. A7

Loves yet hates. chinese lit

I WANT TO SLEEP AND FORGET EVERYTHING!
Well well well, I am at a lost for words. Really happy for all the loved ones. Cheryl got AAB for Common Test and JJ got BE(?). Not bad aye. He's hoping that his E will be a D cos it's only a difference of 0.5 marks. I am so proud of them!

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wow. i did a spot the fake smile test and i got 15 out of 20. not bad yah. haha. i do seem to exceed in this aspect well. haha. to do the test, click here. yups yup. i kinda like it. you might need to wait for the videos to load. haha. think i am hooked onto doing the tests. haha.
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One more thing. Last one. I confirm.

I am VERY SAD that FRANCE LOST. Oh wells.

And it's time to say goodbye to our young and stupid days. The old and stupid days await our paths.

Sigh. I feel really old. This is bad yah. Cos I am supposed to be at the age of 18 where things are still supposed to be happy and carefree but I am not. We are not. We are forced to grow up, to mature, to change and to distance ourselves from the past, a lot. I don't really enjoy this change but I am living comfortably with it. Am I? Hmm.
Went out with cousins just now to celebrate Wynny's 16th birthday. Went back to SASA. All the good memories came gushing back into my head. Wynny thinks so too. We really miss working there. The nice smells, the pretty colours, the stupid nail polishes and even suisse program is making us miss the days so much.

She said that there's a chance of them asking us back to help out in December. I hope it comes through. I might even give up the chance to go TW for it. I mean it. I hope it comes true. Haha. Seems like I have quite a bit of wishes. Haha.

Went for the Gospel Rally at Bethesdal Hall on friday night. It got me thinking. Thinking back on Life Concert. Should I? Hmm. I still have a lot of thinking to do before making a decision, even though I think it won't come true. I just have way too many doubts.

And I think my flu is back. Freak it. My nose is like going to drip any minute. Argh! The flu is making my all sad and depressed. Know how bad it is? Very! Argh!

((: Love all you people.
I am happy for Cheryl. Her CT told her that she got the highest for all 3 subjects in her class, namely Biology, Mathematics and Chemistry. I am so happy for her. My Cheryl, well done.

As for JJ, till now i only know he got a C for Chemistry. Was happy until we told him Cheryl got an A. Oh man. He seems rather disturbed by that fact. Freak it. Now, we don't dare to tell him about Cheryl topping all the subjects. How? I saw him on friday morning and he looked so depressed. I am worried. Like really. Ms Ho said if he didn't get CCD, he will lose his post in band. How can it be? And now that he thinks his Maths and Geog is gone, oh nos. I am really worried. Hope nothing happens to him. Hope he can keep his post. I really hope so.

Then again, I think my Common Test is kinda crappy. Haha. Like Geog is totally unbelievable. It doesn't matter if I watched the Finals or not. It will turn out as crappy. Freak it. And chinny is rubbish. Haha. 25 marks question and all I did was to crap a little stuff. If i can get 5 marks for that question, I will seriously be very happy. Only hope on Econs now. Hope I can get at least a C. Please. Pretty please.

Results should be all out by this week. Hope i pass all. Even a S for Geog will make me happy. Anything but a U for Geog. And a E for chinny is enough. It'll be enough. I really hope for it.
Recently, I just realised the importance of my fellow J1 seniors to me. Namely, JJ and Cheryl. I still remember how I used to think Cheryl is actually Cherylin. Haha. What a joke. Now, that 2 are my so-called pillars of strength, where we encourage each other, knowing what the other is going through. I LOVE YOU GUYS! See you in J2 2007!

Then, I am suddenly reminded of Johnny, my fellow SASa. Haha. Not close to him as he seldom speak and mingle with the newbies. I still remember one of the few sentences we exchanged.

Johnny: So, you normal acad or normal tech?
Serene, feeling thumped: Huh? Why? I look so young?
Johnny: Huh? No lah.
Serene: Okay. I am J1 at SAJC. (or something like that)
Johnny: Huh? What poly?
Serene: St. Andrew's Junior College.
Johnny: Oh. I thought some poly. I am year 1 at...
Serene: Sorry? (at that point of time, i thought he said some ITE)
Johnny: ..... (I still don't get it)
Finally, Johnny: NYP.
Serene: Oh. NYP. Nanyang Poly.
Johnny: Yah.

Haha. I look so young and normal eh. Haha. People special student eh. Hahahaha. Totally special. Haha.

During TeenGames, we were talking and reached the topic on PSLE grades. Guess what? At that point, no one was like damn shocked at 250. Haha. Like finally. They were all like 264, 250, 246, 242 and i think near 240. Haha. For once, I didn't feel so abnormal. Haha. The highest average arregate i've seen. Yayers!
like what i always say (feel about), life never comes back once its gone by. no u-turn, no rewind, no nothing.

everything is now. and it will be then. soon, it's history.

i am trying to keep the memories of this match as close to my heart as possible, and hope i won't forget it. it's a pity that i don't have a tape recorder or else i can record it down for future references.

this match will never be back again. the people too. i kinda miss the english already. we won't see the same people in 2010 again, but let's hope the memory stay deeply etched in our minds okay. memories when we were 18, young and stupid.

love you graceh.
i have now cooled down after watching the match between england and portugal.

it was a really good fight put up by the english, my loves. i applaud them. even though the so called "curse" on penalties is still on them, they did really well. not everyone can have a chance to be so close to the semis of world cup. and no one expected things to go so wrong for them today. like becks being injured and rooney sent off. if they stayed on, we could have won. i am not gonna comment on crouch's performance but i can only say i am very disappointed. we can blame no one for today's results. in fact, after some thinking, i feel that this game seems to be kinda fair. God has everything planned out hasnt he? just when everyone thinks that portugal might lose due to the loss of 2 key players, deco and costinha, 2 key players from england got "sent off". this equalises everything isnt it, even though it can be a little unfair to the english as they weren't prepared for it.

still, i think this game wasn't too bad and the english did prove the critics wrong in the fact that they can play a game like this, defending strong and keeping the goal net free of balls till the shoot out. but by defending, i feel that they have left out a little of the attacking part. overall, it was good. well done guys! i am so proud of you!

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