born serene oh but not old.
nicknamed the old one now.
i stress, i am not old.
i would prefer to be called, mature.

It's not a dream if it came true,
but we exist to dream.
Make a wish,
I'm your faithful genie that doesn't have much patience :)

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i don't know. i wanted to say so much but my short term memory has really allowed me to forget everything, except for one. the book that i'm reading now.

it's called the moth diaries by rachel klein. at first, i thought the story will be really interesting after reading the synopsis. (pardon my spelling) being very excited, i began reading. the first few pages were alright but i felt a little sleepy. maybe it was because i was reading on the bus early in the morning. as the time moves by, it seems to get a little more interesting. while reading on the bus on my way to tj just now, something struck me. the main story teller is such a pathetic girl. she dwells in self-pity and thinks that she's too high and mighty for a lot of people. well, she felt this way cos she's a top student in her class and her father passed away not long ago. but, it's starting to get on my nerves. like, she's always saying stuff that's so one-sided. then again, it's supposed to be journal of hers so it'll only be one sided right? oh wells.

everyone has a part that allows us, unknowingly, to dwell in self-pity. at least i think so. it's like a natural reaction. i was reading about some personality mail yesterday and i think it's kind of contradicting. first it says that i am a selfless person but later in the mail, it was stated that i am selfish person too. this is weird right? after thinking, i realised that no one can be truly selfless, unless you are Christ. for He died upon the cross for our sins. everyone only thinks about themselves, however much we deny it. it's actually a fact, not an assumption.

i think i'm having an overdoes of economics already. i seems to be talking econs to my classmate just now. i was just going on and on about why he shouldn't be saying such a stuff as it's only an opinion, which is normative. blah blah blah. i think he got a little shocked by me. i'm sorry. i'm a pure econs student who loves it to the core.

i want to be a philosopher. (pardon my spelling again) i think it'll be really interesting. to study the philosophy of life and everything else. then again, i want to study psychology too. i want to know what's going on in the human brains that make them do certain stuff. that results in certain actions and behaviour. it's so fascinating, don't you think so? human is such an interesting topic of study. the way human thinks too. i can some sort of see myself going into that direction some day, eventually.

how i wish i can write. write fluently. write in such a manner that it touches everyone. that everyone will understand. how i wish i can write poems that people can relate to. write stories that people can relate to. if only i can write. then again, you might as i can write. who can't? but, i have such a limited vocab and my written english is atrocious, though not as bad as my spoken english. do you think i can write? ya. i mean, i can write about crappy stuff, everyday stuff but i can't write the way i want to write. oh wells.