born serene oh but not old.
nicknamed the old one now.
i stress, i am not old.
i would prefer to be called, mature.

It's not a dream if it came true,
but we exist to dream.
Make a wish,
I'm your faithful genie that doesn't have much patience :)

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woohoo woo woo hoo. heee. i a little high, as you can see. hee. okay okay okay. firstly, thanks to all my mates who has shown so much care for me. and concern too. and worrying even more than i do. thanks dears. but no prob about me. i'll survive. so please worry about yourselves instead yeah. hee. but thanks again. i mean, i'm not even worrying but you guys have like so many more strands of white hair now. sorry dears. love ya.

okay. big day in 2 days' time. woohoo!!! hint hint again. haha. this is like the don't-know-how-many-millonth hint. haha. okay okay. i have nothing to write about. oh wells. he is dam cute. haha. if you know who he is. hee.

love you dears. cya soon. very soon. should be this weekend or next or everyday yeah. hee. mwahhs.
been on a high for the past few days. but now, my mood is low. can't blog about how high i was. can't.

it's such a pain losing a loved one. those who have experienced it before will understand. even though birth death is a common process, but we can never manage to accept the fact. never. i really wonder how do doctors manage to survive. after seeing the deaths of so many people. if it's me, i'll be too devastated to live on. then again, it's contradictory. i want to die after seeing many deaths. haha. this will hurt those who love me.

i..am not sure of what i'm talking about now. i am lost. confused with the nature of life. people, really, treasure your loved ones. because you will never know when you'll lose them or when they will lose you.

people, i love you.
hah. i think heaven likes to play a fool of me. cos i met you again yesterday. after so long, we actually bumped into each other on 2 days in a row. hah.

anyway, i think i'm balding badly. like. ah!! i see hair everywhere. how how how? see. i said la. long hair is no good. haha.

can you guys believe it? we spent so many years of our lives studying. up till now, we spent 12 years of our lives studying (kindergarten included). which is like 70.6% of our life. sigh. i calculated. to be able to spend i've spent half my life studying, you have to hit 37 first. because on average, we will spent 18 years of our lives studying. which means, yes, we still have another about 6 years to go. and i have also calculated. throughout our whole life, till now, we have taken 22 major school exams and 2 national exams. tests not included. there is no way i can calculated the amount of tests taken, because they are so irregular. sigh.

forgive me for reminding you guys about this fact. but it just came to my mind after thinking about my chem paper just now. as you can see. it's not good. haha. but i realised i get over exams very fast. actually, i get over everything very fast, which explains my bad memory. haha.

okay people. promos gonna be over soon. for most of us, it'll be this week or next week the latest. except fel. sorry dear. and for my dear friends who are taking o's. it's coming soon. in about a month or less. soon. we will be partying together. and for those who are having final year exams now. it'll be over by next week too. and psle. i think tomorrow or early next week will be over. so people, let us party!! haha. can you believe i have a maths paper tomorrow? haha. this is so me. hee.

okay okay okay. all you people are not reading this till like weekend or after promos. so. i don't think i need to cheer you guys on anymore right? hee. okay. ahma!! fight fight fight!! hee. take care dearies. our big plans for after promos are coming soon. till then, love you. mwahhs.
about 3 years ago, i thought you were cool. i thought you rocked my world. and wasn't i foolish then? to be fooled by you, but i did not contain any hard feelings for you, because i am the foolish one. it had nothing to do with you.

and for a long long time, we did not manage to bump into each other despite living in the same neighbourhood. on teachers' day eve last year, we finally managed to bump into each other at macs. you were with her and me with song. haha. you even thought we were together. what a joke. you looked happy then. very happy with her. later, i found out that you guys have been together for a long time, about 3 years if i didn't remember wrongly. however, not long after bumping into each other, you broke up. i guess, you must have been desvastated. didn't manage to see you again after that. actually, i have clean forgotten about you.

today, 1 year 1 month and 5 days later, we met at macs again. this time, you looked stressed. maybe because o's round the corner but, you grew a lot plumper. did you binge to get over your heartache? i don't and will never know. the atmosphere was awkward. at least i felt so. managed a smile and walked to the other end of macs to get a seat. don't know why i did that. should have sat near you. at least. why did i try avoiding you? i have no idea. when i went to get my food, the seat was empty but your belongings were still there. tried looking around and saw you. i saw you outside macs, sitting on the stone chair, smoking. why? what happened? you have always been a good boy. why? i mean, of course you are not the only one who smoke amongst my friends but, why you? why you of all people? was it meant to heal the heartache too? was it?

before you left, you walked past me. we only managed to smile. no words exchanged. now, i'm regretting it. should have talked to you. should have shown you some concern. should have. urgh. think i will leave yu a message in friendster later, if i can muster enough courage. i am a coward, a loser.

[does the willingness to stay by your side and protect you represents that i have fallen in love with you?]

friends, fight on!! don't have any more regrets in life. FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!
(: hasn't blogged for some time. sorry. well. i forgot what i wanted to say. as usual. i really have a bad memory. well. FFFF was yesterday. it was suspected to be our first anniversary. but i left very early. sorry people. i don't think yesterday was really fun eh. sorry again.

went to watch 'wait til you're older' today. it's nice. haha. sorry but my vocab is really limited. well. i like that show. (: hee. but it's quite comical. cos the four of us were like laughing loudly during this funny part and crying badly near the end, cos it was really sad. but we were supposedly laughing to loudly and crying too badly. haha. you should have seen us when the movie ended. our eyes are red and faces stained with tears. ((:

and. i think guys with small eyes are cute. haha. just a thought of the moment. haha. aiyah. i don't know what else to write about. oh well. take care people. cos for most of us, exams are starting on monday. fight on dearies!! fight fight fight. we will meet up soon again. soon. till then, love love love.