born serene oh but not old.
nicknamed the old one now.
i stress, i am not old.
i would prefer to be called, mature.

It's not a dream if it came true,
but we exist to dream.
Make a wish,
I'm your faithful genie that doesn't have much patience :)

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CELINE DION LYRICS

"Because You Loved Me"

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I amBecause you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

i love this song. i feel so much for this song. how true. thanks for loving me. thanks. and please continue to love me and give me support during this difficult period. and i will do the same for you.
"For through HIM, all things are possible."

i rock. i'm a procrastinator. hardcore one. do you know how much i procrastinate? i don't think you want to know but if interested, welcome to ask me personally. haha. okay. back to some real stuff. went mugging at macs near my house today. in st margs shorts and mad hair day tee. (liz, sounds familiar? hee. as usual.) anyway, not too bad. had some stuff done. did chem. not a bad achievement. i'm starting to feel proud of mysef. (: fight on!!!

had gp yesterday. total disaster. it was a bad start. very bad start. the essay questions are killers. to me at least. in the end, i did 'sports is the only global language. discuss.' does it sound really bad? my friends said i'm mad to do that topic. well, guess i really am. oh well. comprehension was on homosexual marriage, to legalise or not. overall it wasn't too bad but, i don't know what's wrong. for the first time in my life i almost couldn't finish my gp paper. both papers some more. sigh. AQ was bad. didn't have much time to think and stuff. was rubbish. crap. trash. urgh. i hate AQ. a lot.

and i finally put the doraemon stickers my sister bought to good use. hee. i stuck them onto my pens and markers. i find it embarrassing too but heck it. it's me. hee. and i am going to buy a nightmare before christmas wallet. it's so cute!! no. should be they are so cute!! i still can't decide which one i want to get. so exciting. hee. it's been a long time since i bought a new wallet like..a few months. my last one was marie the cat's, which was very long ago. agree? hee.

read a blog entry about my primary shcool just now. tempted to go back and take a walk now. maybe later. maybe tomorrow. maybe after promos. see. i'm a procrastinator. haha. but, I WILL GO BACK ONE DAY. the view of sunset from my primary school is really beautiful. i want to witness it again. and take it down. and keep it as my eternal beautiful memory. (:

hooked onto Still, by hillsong. i love it so so so much. can't stop thinking about it now.

Still
Words and Music by Reuben Morgan

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

isn't this song beautiful? thanks grace. for the inspiration. (:

well. this is a really long entry. been some time since i last wrote so much. and update so frequently. this is really a new beginning. (: and i would love for things to remain like this. ahma, thanks for the idea during tuition. hee. okay people. this is a very very long entry and i shall stop here. (: fight on people, FIGHT ON!!

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!! ALL MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS!! JIAYOU!! WOOHOO!! FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!
yoohoo!!! haha. i am very high now. for a i-don't-know reason. haha. anyway, it's a long long day today. lots of things to talk about. woohoo. let's get the party started. hee.

okay. first of all, bad start in the morning. i happen to wake up on the wrong side of the bed!! how bad can it be? very very. and the best thing is, i felt stressed early in the morning, the first thing i felt when i woke up. how sad right. sigh. then my classmate has to stress me out even further by showing me her past year papers!! she finished all of them. damn. now, i think i am so dead. and my dear classmate also happens to be a hardcore mugger. why do i know her? why am i so suay? why? why? why? sigh. you know. i was so stressed by her that i felt like commiting suicide la. now you understand how bad it was? ya. and to believe up till yesterday i thought people who swallow panadols are stupid. urgh. how stupid can i get? very. damn. this is going to be the first and last time you gonna get this from me. HEE.

after that wasn't so bad. had pe. yays!! played handball. fun!! fun!! fun!! hee. halfway through the game, mr ho decided we should take a break. so. well. thought was just a normal break but!! a few seconds after we went for break, the dm announced that it's fire drill!! ahhh!! the sun was high up in the sky, at 11. ya la. you know how hot it was? how how how hot?! we were all dripping sweat, literally. that was the bad part. but saw him. hee. man grace, did i tell you how he sound before? well. i concluded today it's really bad. something like beckham but like maybe ten or more times lower. but still. urgh. spoils the image totally. sigh. oh wells.

what else ah? ohh. i was on the bus just now and i saw this firefighter driving the engine, and he's dam cute. i can't remember how he looks like actually, but at that moment, he was very very cute. i guess that's what you call a very moment. (:

and. oh yah. i am very pimply now!! pimples are my best friends now. they are everywhere. and there's this huge one in the middle of my back. ouch!! it's been hurting me all day long. all day long. no no no!! anyone has spare cash and has no idea how to use it? well. i won't mind a early birthday present. i need pimple cream!! tubes and tubes and tubes of them. and buy me lots of beauty products please. i need to rescue my face!! somebody, help me!!

what else? that should be about all. see if i remember anything later. if i do, then i'll fill it in. yups yup. okay dearies. time to watch some tv (like PRIDE) before i go and try and get some gp knowledge in. haha. gp's tomorrow. go serene. wooyeah. go serene. wooyeah. haha.

love love love.
i work fast.
new blog.
http://torn-and-lost.blogspot.com
the password's the same.
(:
see you there.
new blog. new start. new beginning.
i want and need a re-birth.
okay.
added a password to my blog. why?
i don't know.
just felt like doing it.
gonna move my blog soon.
ya.
(:
yeah baby!! it's me. haha. must be wondering why this chabo so high now right, instead of like almost dead from mugging. hee. sorry la. i am such a loser can. i just can't set my mind on hardcore mugging la. later. i will. later. hee. keep your fingers crossed. hee.

anyway, i want to say about the bbq yesterday!! hahaa. so much fun!! okay. it was a bbq organised by nana, nexa and jia. haha. dam fun la!! i didn't help much in the bbq-ing part cos there's no space for me ma. hee. but we played zhong ji mi ma!! haha. the punishment is to drink this drink put together with lots of ingredients that i don't want to know about. hahaa. the loser from the previous round will have the honour of mixing the drink. haha. everyone drank except nexa so she's the ultimate winner. haha. but we cheated la. haha. and one of na's friend got so high that he couldn't stop laughing. haha. must be cos of the butter and oil he drank. haha. he was dam funny to look at. haha.

oh. played hai da with nex. man. i think we really have telepathy la. for the first 4 times, we started with the same action. haha. dam funny. it's like so jinxed. haha. oh. and nana's friend rayner is so entertaining and funny. haha. and he is so gay. haha. he rocks la. haha.

had so much fun yesterday!! hope to have a bbq again soon. hint hint. hee.
i..i don't know. wanted to say i'm like finally studying. but, my mood's not there now. i'm disheartened. man. my english suck. that line sounds/looks really weird. man. am i going to pass my gp? i hope. pass anything else? i better.

grace, no worries. we can do it. like i said. promos are meant for promoting. we can do it. (just on a saver note, keep our fingers crossed.)

people, we must go on fighting!! don't give up!! yups!! jiayou!!! love love love. mwahhs.

i don't know what i feel like now. was watching a mv just now. love the feeling it gives. makes my heart go all cold. i am weird. oh wells.

you were so close today. yet, so far. no thumping of heart. no blushing. think you are really history now, or maybe, you weren't even there to start with. oh wells.

love you people.

i have bad point. at least i think it's bad. i'm too trusting at times. well. can't help it right.

oh wells. anyway for you people out there, you know who you are, i do know what is going on in your minds. i know. just that i have no wish to declare war cos i do love peace and don't like trouble. yups. but just don't think i act as if i don't know doesn't mean you can go on with it. oh well. you guys won't even read my blog in the first place. lastly, i like to say i really don't give a damn about what you think cos it's my life. and i live it the way i want(:

well. happy mugging dears. mwahhs.

i wanted to bitch about this friend of mine who refuses to grow up and her actions are making me very pek chek. really wanted to. but, after some time and some thinking, i realised i shouldn't and won't. cos everyone is different, everyone has their own characteristics and personalities. no one is perfect. it's mean to bitch about her when i mayself makes a lot of people pek chek at times, including you who are reading.

somehow, i think i've grown up a bit more today. just a little tweeny bit. but, it's better than nothing. (:

i'm sick of life now. but, i should stop saying that too eh. cos i chose this route, i should persevere on. i should just stop complaining cos everyone feels the same too. i believe.

it's so difficult being nice and all but i'm going to try. so if you next see me nice and sweet and non-bitchy, believe me. it's really me. if you ever see me like that. ya.

this post is quite random yeah. oh wells. happy mugging people. jiayou. (:

woohoo!! i know this is very random but my new blogskin looks so cute!! hee. i love it. it's like dam random la. okay. haha.

just watched pride too!! you know..takukimu. haha. oh my god!! he is dam cute la!! dam dam dam cute!! haha. hockey rocks!! haha. okay. ice hockey rocks too!! haha. i rock. haha.

met liz today to return her her nephew. haha. dam fun. more powerpuff. oh no. i'm turning into a powerpuff freak!! haha.

okay. this is dam random. i keep on saying this is dam random. haha. oh oh oh. i love mayday for this hokkien songs. they accompanying me for mugging. hee. hokkien rocks!! haha. dam random.

okay okay okay. time to try and get some mugging done, with my hokkien songs. hee. byeeeee!!

okay okay. i apologise for not blogging for so long. hee. i'm a lazy bum la. so. hee. aiyah. i think i sorta forgot what i want to blog about. shit. let me think ah. okay. got back a little.

i know this sounds weird but it's cruel to eat the other parts of animals other than the meat. such as the head, intestines, etc. yucks. it's like so cruel. haha. i'm weird right. hee. i keep telling myself i have to refrain from eacting meat cos of the poor animals but, sigh. i keep on forgetting too. i shall try from tomorrow yeah. wish me luck. and yes, this means no more kfc and macs. dam. i'm already starting to regret. haha. i doubt i'll succeed but hey, i'll try. so remember to remind me the next time we eat yeah. hee.

and you know, there is this dam nice phone from sony ericsson called w800i. i think i a bit slow la. only say now but i haven't blogged for a long time. ya. hee. so, you know, i also by the way like the phone a lot ah. and it's about a month away from a very big day ah. so, you know what i mean right. no. don't shake your head and try and act stupid. my friends are all very intelligent. cousins included. hee.

k la. i don't know what else to say. hee. cheenas rock!! haha. so do ah lian and ah huay. hee. if you don't understand, don't bother trying. haha.

bye. tCare. love you people. mwahhs. (: